It’s NEVER easy to be a mother, especially to be a SINGLE MOTHER.
When I knew that I was pregnant last April 2013, of course at first I was shocked. “How? When? What will happen next?” are some of the questions that entered my mind. But I never entertain the idea of killing my own child just for the sake of others, just for the sake of selfish people. NO. I raised my son 9 months inside my tummy with no help from his father.
My father even didn’t want me to stay at our own house ha, just to hide my pregnancy. I transferred to 2 different houses that time pa.
I even worked as an English tutor to Koreans since I was 2 months pregnant. I kept from the company that I worked for, at first that I was pregnant. But there was a time when they asked if I am, so I thought it was time for me to say it. They accepted it. And I was happy that they did. As a return I gave them my perfect attendance kahit maya’t maya ihing ihi ako while attending my phone and video classes.
I deactivated my Facebook account but I still kept tracked of my other FB account, twitter, instagram and one pregnancy blog that I put up. You may found it here: http://lifewithmylittleangel.blogspot.com/ Each time I reminisce of my pregnancy, I would be regretting maybe if I never documented or wrote anything about it. Kahit pangit na pangit ako sa sarili ko non at naglalakihan na ang mga paa ko sa manas, I took picture of it. Click. Document. For one day, I’ll show my self and my son what I’ve been through and how he grew inside my tummy. Well the good news though is before I gave birth, I was able to went back home pinayagan na ko ng father ko.
That was the month also that I’ve learned of Ethan’s father’s accident Of course, with no hesitations, I told my friends, “Bakit buhay pa? Bakit safe sya?” Then I thought, the Lord is unfair. Mac already met an accident that would actually put an end to his life. Pero bakit? Bakit buhay pa sya?!! Bakit humihinga pa?! I questioned the Lord, I questioned my faith. Come December 4, 2013, I gave birth to a healthy 3.1 kg baby boy, Matthew Ethan, I swear, I never knew of love at first sight til I met him. He’s my love and life. As Ethan grows up and we already celebrated his baptismal and 1st birthday last December 7, 2014, I realized.. mali pala ako. God is fair. He let that accident to Mac because of reasons we don’t know.
But for whatever reasons there are, may it serve him a lesson. Because he let his pride take over his fatherhood, he was not able to witness his son’s firsts, his son’s cute little milestones.
Before I end this blog, allow me to give 3 messages to all the single moms:
1. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Yes, you are the sole parent now of your child/ren. But you are never alone. God, your parents, family and (real) friends will always be there to back you up.
2. SAVE YOUR EMERGENCY FUND. Once again, I will talk about investments, but aside from those, have an EMERGENCY FUND, above your physical, moral and spritual support, you will also need to prove your child/ren FINANCIALLY. Save at least 3-6 months worth of monthly expenses so if anything happens, wag naman sana, at least you’re prepared. Please include also, having a life insurance just in case of unexpected worsts.
3.KNOW YOUR RIGHTS. We have a lot of solo parent rights like free legal assistance and an additional 7 days leave if you’re working also. Get to know your rights. 
Lastly, BE STRONG. I am with you, it was and will never easy. But we’ll get through this. We are one in this fight! Love you all mothers!
lifewithmylittlewarrior 